Well using this happened. Not. I've been dreaming a lot about middle school recently. The people, the place, and how it affects my daily life today. Surprisingly a lot.
I promised myself I'd not fall into the same pit I did back then where I idealized something that clearly couldn't have been that good (my friends that I had lost over time.) And now I seem to be doing that for middle school. The sensations, the feelings, everything about it seems almost as close as my real life experiences right now. I could be walking down stairs on campus, and the rubber smell would remind me of the stairs at Bridges. It's fucking weird, man. Almost as if, assuming I wanted to, I could deny reality. Good thing I'm not crazy enough to want to do that... entirely. I'm just a little worried that I might get to that point eventually.
I have to stop idolizing the past but when everything is in motion that's tough. I can only hope I never miss high school, at this point.
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