29 & 30

Poem 29

Catharsis.
Simply a word?
Simply so much more.
Emotional release,
Love or torment.

Send some my way.
I'm tired of running today.
My feelings repressed and emotions regressed,
As if I weren't up to the test.

World: leaving me bereft of strength.
Safety lying only in past times.
Draw the sword, young one!
Give yourself the strength that I so need.

Weaknesses lie behind me.
Among the oppressed, my domain.
Our tormentors smile from above.
Looking back: it's all remaining to do.

My mistakes, my burdens;
My loves, my songs.
All led to naught.
Oh, I had Catharsis all right.
Brought nothing for my soul, not even pain.

Ask: dare you follow my path?
Finding pain in pleasure?
Seeing nothing in all?
Look me in the eye;
Time to sigh.
Sigh and surrender to your past.
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Poem 30

Princess in my dreams.
Forever within reach;
Never in arms' length.
From afar I spy
Your joyful eyes,
Hoping they lie.
Hoping you wait.

Waiting for me.
Not your knight,
Still your savior.
Appraise my soul!
Worth far more than gold.

Yet, must I save myself
Before I save you?
This dream...
More than life.
Happy endings without a mess.
Except, I still wait for you.
My soul trapped in this dream,
My body constrained to reality.

Princess in my dreams!
Become princess of them.
Benevolent rule over my subconscious,
A domain none other has seen.
Help me fly;
Help me no longer sigh.

Princess of my dreams.
Wicked and vile creature!
Trapping me in eternity.
Let me escape to a world
I know is real.
Allow me fear,
Grant me suffering.
Without them, your grace
Means nothing.

My fantasy.
Your reality.
Eternally entwined.