Friday, March 16, 2012

Poem 18

A journey for the explorer
at last.  Searched and searched
for years, did he.  And now he
had purpose again.  No more
could he deny that was all
he ever needed.
A strange euphoria
that came with schizophrenia.
He was no explorer.
He had no journey.
All he was was alone.
And there is no cure for that.
Not even the most vivid of fantasies.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Nobody loves me

Nobody is following my blog.  :(

Poem 17

Drowning in a sea of whiskey.
Listening to the sound of the waves,
Enjoying his self torment.
The dock, his one temptation, was within sight,
Floating distance away.
"Drink up," it whispered to him.
"Drink up and I will be yours."
And drink he would,
Were he a better man.
Just the other day he'd drank it dry.
He had with the dock,
Because it was better than drinking alone.

The poisonous sea claims another victim.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Hmm

Does it still count if I do the number of poems but not one a day?  I don't think so, but oh well.  Back at school... don't know how I feel about that yet. Worried about my mother.  Cliffnotes for ya there.  A few of these are probably more like prose, but hey.  I'm already cheating on the time, I can cheat on the form too!

Poem 10

In so many ways
They are alike.
Their habits formed,
Burned the blunt of old friend's scorn.
One was a nihilist,
The other a believer.

The nihilist asked his believer friend,
"Why?"
And, sadly, the believer could not answer.

Finally, he spoke.
"I don't know," he said.
"But I do know that if I could answer 'why' I would probably be a nihilist myself."

The nihilist was shocked by these words,
And realized he did not know either.
So he began to believe.

And the two Believers
Were thenceforth strangers.

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Poem 11

The film keeps running.
An old artifact,
Seen rarely by the human eye.
The master, Projectionist, only
Fiddles with it when necessary.
But when he does, he does so with a smile.

The Projectionist knows his time has come,
Time to say good-bye...
Once his job was always and forever,
But now the world no longer needs him.

The master started the film for one last go,
And let the reels work their magic.
This time, He only watched.
Jittery, grainy, and out of focus.
But, hey, c'est la vie.

The Projectionist died in his sleep,
Leaving the film's run incomplete.
The final reel set ablaze
By his negligence.
But he was no longer needed.
The world was over anyway.
So burst the film, so burst our lives.

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Poem 12

And then came the sun.
With all of its power,
It arrived at the anointed hour;
He had promised to bring some fun.
Sadly, he could bring none.
This left everyone sour,
Left alone to be dour.
What caused the sun to run?
Perhaps it was us,
And our bittersweet romance with the moon.
More respect for the light of the sun is a must,
Our love for it must grow soon.
Moon, I emplore you to run away so that my lust
For you will go away, becoming moot.

(there's supposed to be syllable count rules for sonnets. I forgot when writing this.)

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Poem 13

She was alone that day...
I could have stopped her
From taking the plunge.

Her inner darkness revealed,
I ran away in fear.
Knowing not that it would
Forever live on in my conscience.

Damn you, Devil Woman.
Damn you and your charms.
Your pretensions and tricks
Left me in more than lust.
Oh no, it was love!

So sets the sun,
So fell her from the cliffs.
Ending our love,
Ending her life.

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Poem 14

The end of testing.
Pencils fly - up in the sky!
Higher than a bird, higher than a plane,
Even higher than Superman.

Youthful joy at summer,
Ready for the funner times.

An innocence that escapes adults.
Oh! To be free of the lust of sexuality,
To be free of worry,
To be free of Time.

For yes, a child knows not Time in summer.
Just that it is there for him to bask in the sun.
True freedom lies not in ability to work
For a break,
But the ability to forget.

In some ways, a child's freedom
Exceeds ours by far.
A heavenly level of euphoria,
Only reached again in death.
Constant throughout summer, whether June or August.

As summer ends,
the child's freedom returns
to an earthly plane.
The pencils float back to their desks like feathers;
leaving the children to write their abcs, with the precision of a machine.

The machine that, come next summer, they will once again escape....
For some, the last time.

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Poem 15

He is a knight of the night.
The downtown predator,
Who fears nothing and no one.
Reckless abandon;
No more worries.
His time of reckoning
will come sooner than yours.

And you will know when it does.

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Poem 16

A mother and son at a disconnect.
"You've ruined my life," they both cry dismayed.
Never able to listen to the other.
The son quieter than the mother,
Until he sees what's in her glass.

A father, lost in the conflict,
Who gave up many years ago.
He's seen enough - this isn't his first.
"I'm tired," he says, and walks outside
For his cigarette of the night.
Not out of addiction, but out of habit.
The big picture is lost on him,
As the little details ensnare his attention
And trap his mind.
It is those that cause him to fight.

The mother.
Beastly only just a year ago,
Bigger than her house.
Defeated now.  Resentment built.
Deathly pale, and skinny to boot.
She's tired, too, but never gives up.
For the fights with others are more important
Than the fight to stay alive.
She has others that will take care of her
Until she kills herself by her vices.
There is no angel of mercy powerful enough to save her.

A son, conflicted.
His worries fall on deaf ears.
His conflicts escalate.
The only thing he has left to do:
write this story
So that others may understand.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Oh My!

It appears as though I've slacked off on my Lent agreement.  What a shame.  It's time to catch up, by writing a super amount of poems in one night!

Btw, Spring Break.  I've mostly slept it away and am now frantically catching up on work.  It's a sad existence, college life... etc.

Poem 4

What's this?
A mystery?
A bon-afide mysterious event?

No!
They said they died out a millennia ago.
The movies took away all the wonder, they said.
But yet there it is!

I saw a future
That only left me with questions.
My future.
Is it so that our life is mystery
In of ourself?
Is magic a lie?

I guess only They know.

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Poem 5

When He returned nothing was the same.
Forever is a long time, after all.
He was promised rags to riches that come with age,
But instead went from riches to rags.

Old times long forgotten
Were still as new to He.
And as he told them as stories,
The memories began to take form.

And then the memories that had taken form
Would only lose their meaning;
For in becoming legend,
Personal significance was lost.

He sighed, and left to the real world.
Such is the fate of grown-ups.

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Poem 6

Oh boy! Oh boy!
The time is drawing near.

Oh boy!  Oh boy!
It's all becoming clear.

Oh my! Oh my!
What reason's there to sigh?

Oh my!  Oh my!
I'm really, really high.

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Poem 7

A salute I propose
To the man lost out there.

Lost to the ways of others,
Confined to his own space;
He knows not how to compare,
For he has little time to spare.

Out there one finds only greed;
And yet, he finds that it could be a need.
Without greed, said he,
Where would the world be?

Such logic makes too much sense.
And, with that, the man vanished.
Consumed by his greed, it was everything
He was in need of.

Here's to you, sir.

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Poem 8

The day is done.
When all's gone quiet,
I wake.
I slither through corridors,
Sidle across roofs.
Slide down drainage poles,
Slip in the slime.

Through the streets I creep
To wait for my friends.
But where are they?
I cannot say.

There they are, together.
Without me.
The night ends.

Another night comes.
Tonight, I do more than creep.
I strike.
To those whom abandone me,
I pay my respects...
Only to tell them to Greet Death.

And only in my mind does this Memory Play exist.
Another time,
Another place.

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Poem 9

Rain
Rain
Rain

Droplets of memories
That fall from the sky.

Even when we catch them,
They remain private.
For they contain both tears
And dreams...
Too personal
For their owners to keep.

I, however, can see.
For I am A Dreamer.
I see the Dreams.
The tears remain a mystery,
As they should.

But perhaps a Crier could read them.

Saturday, March 3, 2012

day 3

i'm home!
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poem 3

Time, time, time.
You think you're so special.
Who gives you the right to rule?
Was it God?  Mankind?
Why have you been deemed so important?

I denounce you and your evils.
You who take away those precious to us,
You who make us grow old,
You who allow tragedy.

Time, Time, Time.
A great concept
That became a lost opportunity.
Were you to disappear,
Would we miss you?
Only you would know,
For only Time would tell.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

day 2

Going home tomorrow for spring break.  Yay!
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Poem 2

Move away, Move away,
Move Away.
Move with the sun,
And become a contradiction.
Make others move for you,
Though they do not know it.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

On Lent

I'm not a religious man.  I most likely don't believe in God but don't quite have the strength to sever my ties from that hope just yet.  However, I do enjoy a challenge: and lent, since I tie it not to religion, has become a seasonal personal challenge.  This year, I originally planned on repeating last year's change - giving up facebook.  Seems practical considering I'm addicted. HOWEVER, here at USD they are encouraging people to give up "apathy" for lent.  Although they probably mean this in terms of worldly issues (ie genocide etc), I am taking this as a call to improve myself and not be so apathetic towards things.  Therefore, although I've made the decision late, I have decided that I shall make a blog post every day until the lent season ends.  In addition, I will write a poem every day.

I have to thank my friend for indirectly giving me this idea.  She's playing the guitar for 30-40 minutes a day, as her lent challenge.  Since she took the "give up apathy" challenge to heart I figured I ought to too.
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My poem for the day:

I burned it down.
The ties that bind have been broken.
The pathways to the past are no more,
So no one will have to settle their scores.
Alone today, alone tomorrow,
It's all in the mind you know,
Though that may be hard to swallow.

This Bridge That Never Was,
An invisible path laid out.
It was to only take me in one direction, and that was back.
Moving forward has to be the way for me,
so I burned The Bridge That Never Was.

Although the Bridge was sturdy,
The supports were built on lies.
"See you soon" "I'll trust you forever".
Supports that held no meaning when we were young
Somehow stood for so long in my mind.

But now I am wiser,
And have turned back from the Bridge.
Thought it Never Was,
Another will take its place.
And it will Be.